FrenchBananaHorn

Hi, since my last journal post I have:
-graduated high school 
-graduated college with a BS in Health Studies  
-started graduate school...working on my Master of Public Health  

I've also not drawn much since, but my experience using Photoshop and such programs has helped my career! I do some social media marketing for my county health department. Currently working on a BILLBOARD concept for tobacco prevention.

Hope you are all doing well,

Anna

The internal jack for my laptop died so that's why I haven't been drawing and uploading things because my computer sort of won't charge anymore and I've been trying to work things out with a buddy of mine so that he can fix it for me because I really don't want to pay a ton of money to fix something so simple (I bought the part and if it weren't for soldering being involved I'd do it myself).

I'm working so hard on this commission right now and I'm experiencing the symptoms that I had in the past with my art depression/art block for two years.

So, a big fucking thank you to my boyfriend's parents for ruining this for me by causing me to have a panic attack last week. I thought it was all over but this disruption is taking a toll on my art. I was so happy things were going right, my art finally pleased me and now it's all gone to shit.

I'm fucking done with them, honestly, I'm done taking their shit. First they wanna treat me like I'm some sort of abomination to the human race and now it's affecting my ability to do art. I thought art would be my renewed passion, to challenge my energy instead of in band or track but apparently I'm left with nothing now.

I just...I'm distraught right now, I really am. I didn't want this to happen to me every again and it did.

TLDR; Shop Link

For those of you that know me from Gaia (most do), you are probably also aware that for the past FIVE years, I've wanted to open up an art shop there and do commissions.

It's been a dream of mine to live out since I started on there, and has been my inspiration to do art, however, I was never fully confident in my ability nor did I ever have a consistent style to sell up until this past December. I'd also had what seems to be a constant art block for at least 2yrs, which may have been from a sort of art depression (idk maybe I was depressed I couldnt do anything I liked which caused things to spiral into doing...nothing lol).  Since December, everything has gone through the roof and I'm finally living my dream as of 3/10/13.

I'm still figuring things out, but hey I've had at least 3 commissions so far which means people like my art and are willing to pay for it. It's really boosted my confidence in drawing.

Also, I'd like to credit AnilCorn for the layer style I used in my banners, love his styles so much check them out and tell all your friends xD

Remember this gem?

Well, my dad recently got a tat of it on his back. He asked me to draw something in that style of my sister to go with it but you guys know by now my style has never been consistent...well this happened to be an experimental style at the time and he asked me to draw something in it a year after I did it xD I tried, and failed epically so he just got my drawing and went in photoshop, reflected it, recolored it (my sister has blonde hair and he gave her, I think, a purple swim suit...maybe it was blue xD) and then the dude tattooed it onto his back and made me a tattoo artist xD

Apparently everyone in the shop was all, "oh wow she has potential to be a tattoo artist blah blah" and when my dad told me I was like... there is literally no way in hell I could with how much art block I have all the time and how inconsistent my stuff is xD

People would walk in expecting one thing then walk out sad because it's completely in a different style than what they expected xD Or...maybe they'd be happy but that uncertainty is not something I think would be a good idea for tattoos unless you're a complete daredevil and the reason why you wanted a tattoo was to live on the edge by not knowing what's going on your body